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Hmm time for a new Tumblr theme :)

Been using this for half a year already!

I pour my heart out,

Only to have you brush me aside and ignore me for hours.

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It almost hurts as much as the fact that I have got no one else there and then that I coulda gone to otherwise.

When I think about it....

cristinaxp:

leonyisninjaa:

effortlesslyme:

goodnightkayla:

I’ve always liked boys more than girls. I’ve always had a definite tomboyish self inside me.

All that girl stuff seemed kind of silly to me when I was real young. All the boy toys looked more fun and all the boys playing on the playground were always having more fun than the girls playing with dolls and stuff like that.

I just all around like guys more, though I tend to have feelings for them more than friend wise at one point or another.

• They’re easier to be with, in my opinion. Most of them don’t need to actually make plans. You can get in the car with them or call them up and just say, “Well shit, let’s just GO somewhere!” and they’ll go, without the need of saying “well where are we gonna go?”.  And you don’t really have to do anything either…just walk around stores and shit and do absolutely nothing, and you still have the greatest time.
• They give me a different perspective on things. Girls and guys think differently about things, and it helps to know both opinions in order to make a good decision.
• For me, it’s really easy to tell who’s an asshole guy wise and who’s not. With girls, I usually become decent friends with someone…think they’re awesome…then tell them something…and they become a secret-blowing bitch. Girls are SO sneaky about their true intentions.

I have a girl best friend. I have a guy best friend. But in general, guys are so much easier for me to be around, and so much healthier in some cases.

Hahah, especially the 3rd point. That broke me in primary school when I was still very naive and trusting. Never got around to trust girls anymore, but I guess I’m slowly coming around to that of late? But I keep feeling so edgy, like I’m just waiting to see if my trust would ever be broken.

Disappointed definitely,

I’m not gonna lie.

Come next year, being new can and will no longer be an excuse I hide behind. I still remember what she told me the first time I played on how to improve: Be fearless.

Now almost a year on, I don’t think I’ve changed much in that aspect. Still nervous, still afraid, and very much fearful. I needa stop doubting myself. I needa be more confident and less self conscious.

I guess what it means to give my all would be to change myself not only physically, but also mentally and emotionally, and to improve on all three. Been working on the first aspect, but not so much the last two.

I’m not good, but I don’t think I suck entirely. I have improved from when I first started and there’s way loads more for improvement, and so I am gonna work on that, in all the 3 aspects.

To do list!

x Blog bout soccer camp (yes it takes a lot of effort for me to blog cos I tend to multitab here and there and forget bout blogging altgth)

x Pack my extremely messy cupboard

x Go to the library and get some books to read

x Go to the gym & swim if weather’s favourable

x Research more on training regimes (though the actual getting down to it will take some time hohum)

x Finish the last installment of Matrix :D

x Touch my books!

x Plan out what to write for the exchange programme application

Hey people who know WP

the-fastlane:

Please get her a brocolli on her birthday. K thx bai =P

EXCUSE ME.

I don’t like broccoli :( Whoever who gimmes a broccoli will receive a cauliflower as a birthday present zzz!